Last week we visited my younger daughter and went out for dinner. It wasn’t fun and even though I’m done with chemo and clear of cancer the fact is I’m twisted up inside and damn tired of being told to “get over it.” Or the latest, “we’re all sick of you feeling sorry for yourself.”
I don’t know what to do about this beyond not sharing this blog and the rest of my life online with even my own family, especially my younger daughter. Her advice, impatience and judgmental attitude isn’t welcome anymore. I’m not the person she wants me to be–too bad.
My wife, on the other hand, at least has a friend who had cancer and now understands a bit of why I’m still a mess. This helps take the pressure off but you know the depth of experience from two heart failures caught at the last minute and the just done cancer is not something I SHOULD get over. More on this later.
On a related topic, Rebecca Hogue at Cancer Blog Mentors is doing a survey that needs to be done really soon. This blog is hardly good advertising for the restorative powers of blogging but slowly it is working for me. Details below.
Just a quick reminder that I’m doing a study on how breast cancer blogs impact those whoread them. There is little or no research on the impact of blogs have on the readers of the blog – more is done on the impact to those who write them.
So if you are reading this now – please take a couple of minutes to complete the survey. The more detail you include in the written parts, the better.
Here is the link: http://fluidsurveys.com/s/blogimpact/