As a counter to my reflection written from frustration it’s important to credit the actual speaking in public of doubts and irritations with blogging as a course requirement have pointed out a need to discover more on the subject. Talking to yourself out loud and then reviewing the recording seems to have the characteristics of maybe not psychological importance but it does carry the quality of action in a learning environment where responding is integral and it may not be necessary for replies to come from outside. Awareness of being in a learning space (as a sort of imaginary witness to the words and behaviours of residents within the space–or maybe as a space governed by social contract to certain standards) has a transformative effect that I have trouble explaining yet feels important to the purpose and justification of blogging as an educational object.
Can it be as simple (simple?) as the act of writing causing something to jump into a different level of perception? Not only the ability to view what was formerly a vague thought without need for supporting logic, but an affirmation of importance and “realness” set loose? Obviously, I could tak this into a corner so task is not to answer myself now and move back out into researching the affordances of “sharing your thoughts” as a starting point. Blogging has some fundamental place in education and society as well as a need to explain itself to me.
As a bonus to me and maybe not my readers thinking about changes at work sent me looking for resolution. At work, our department of teaching and learning technologies it the target of a lot of confusion and plain old abuse for being the imagined leader of change. As a survival tactic we ourselves have taken on the role of confident advocates for change. In fact we are no more certain than our detractors that what we are doing is of value and face the bonus of dealing with major project direction changes on an almost minute by minute basis.
This is no surprise to anyone familiar with institutional behaviour though it also suggests a way for me to name my problem and investigate a way to resolve it. This sent me back to a Collaborate recording hosted by Nancy White back in the Change11 MOOC. And on from there to other resources referenced by Nancy.
Not sure if this makes any sense to anyone? Might be that my annoying blogging of a problem has set something in motion that I need to complete for my own sake?
See also Are You a Social Artist?
And this short video of what our office should look like: http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=endscreen&NR=1&v=Nsb_P–0QtQ